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I wished everyone hadn't just raised money...

I want to open up this conversation…. Am I mad?

Recently I visited a friend at a charitable event raising money for a cancer research charity. It was a ‘fun day’ with stalls and food and music. All money raised went to research for a cure.

Whilst I was perusing the set up - casually taking it all in - I felt that everyone was existing as in a dream. I felt like I was the only one awake although I’m sure some may argue that it was simply my own dark perspective.

Here’s what I saw…

Up to 10 stalls all packed with plastic one-use products, rubbish all seeming to go into big plastic bin bags with no division between recycled/waste. Glitter (that I don’t believe was bio-glitter, but that’s not fact) on everyone’s faces. The biggest stall had cake/treats. There were ice creams and burgers (and some vegan food too, fair play!) and all were running off generators pumping pollution into the very air we stood, breathing in, reflecting on how bad cancer was.

There was a sponsored walk, along busy roads because that was the only route available. (Not the fault of the event organiser by the way).

Sugar is proven to - if not 100% cause cancer - then massively exacerbate it. Ill health, air pollution, plastic in our oceans (the event was by the sea, which struck me as ironic, since that’s where most of the glitter was going to end up) all cause us cancer. Yet we’re raising money - daily, all over the UK - to cure something that our environmental set up hugely contributes to. So as we raise money to cure cancer (find a way to heal ourselves, should the worse happen) we create fundraising set ups that make us MORE likely to GET cancer…. And then we use the money to test on animals who suffer because we live in a vicious circle of contrariness, of blindness, of (it seems to me) wilful apathy.

Was I the only one to think such thoughts that day? Perhaps I’m overly negative, perhaps a far lighter (and truer) view is available. I’d love to hear it, genuinely. I’d love to be convinced that I’m wrong.

But what if I’m not wrong? What if we’re really, absolutely mental?

Eckhart Tolle says, “The pollution of the planet is only an outward reflection of an inner psychic pollution: millions of unconscious individuals not taking responsibility for their inner space.”

This was in my mind for most of my short meanderings throughout this event.

It saddened me and disheartened me. I wished we could wake up.

I wished everyone hadn’t just raised money that would cause suffering to animals utterly apart from ourselves and helpless to our whims.

I wish we could lighten our hearts instead and start to look at the cause (our own disconnection, our own belief that we aren't enough EXACTLY as we are) instead of glittering - literally - over the symptoms and doing OH so much more harm in the process.

Shattered Heart


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